February 28, 2007 my life was changed forever. In a tent in Northern Kuwait, I laid weeping in my bed because God was gone. I had walked the line of Jesus and the world for too long. God had to walk away for me to realize the damage my game was causing.
I was born and raised in the small community of Eagle River, Alaska. The same community my Grandfather had homesteaded in the 50s. My Mother and Father loved Jesus. My parents took my sister and me to church every time the doors were open. My church was amazing filled with Godly men and women who watched over me. At the age 18 I was entrenched in the Christian Punk Scene. I was in multiple Christian punk bands, despite the lack of a “scene”. I knew God had called me to the ministry.
In a moment of sheer boredom and seeking I joined the Alaska Army National Guard. After Basic Training I followed my friend to Alaska Bible Institute with the plan of finding my purpose in ministry. Instead of finding a magic map with my life’s route, I found my beautiful bride Jessica. Within one year of meeting, we were unhappy as any other married couple. In my infinite wisdom, I decided to leave Bible School to pursue my military career.
After a couple years I had an unhealthy appetite for nicotine, alcohol, and pornography. My patient and loving wife never stopped praying for me. I became an expert at walking a tightrope between Christianity and the world. That was until February 28th 2007, when God stepped away.
There I sat in Kuwait. Alone. I can never explain how alone a human can feel. I pleaded and begged God to come back. I finally came to the end of myself. I realized that I had to choose a side. At that point God rushed back in and changed me forever.
Since that day God has renewed my marriage to my amazing wife. He allowed me and my wife to adopt two amazing children. He has fulfilled all my dreams. God doesn’t help those who help themselves. God helps those who come to the end of themselves.
Now… now I am chasing Christ. I will not stop. I will not be ashamed. I am currently pursuing my Bachelors of Divinity through Christian Leaders Institute. I am currently called to a time of preparation. I am excited to see what Jesus is doing.